Filling the Void

Empty inside and out, an endless pit. Hollow… a shell of what once was. Not pretty. Never good enough… unresolved pain and guilt of the past. Going through the motions of life. Shadows welcome me and call me lover. Deceived of what's real, I give them my all…they grin. Used and taken advantage of… Temporary relief. The void grows. A little voice distant and gagged whimpers in a spinning mirror in the nothingness. A reflection only… I wallow in loneliness. The light…a dull memory. No care or emotions given… or thought. Tries to penetrate the blackness. The shadows laugh and jest… taking my self-worth and time. Curious and concerned, it asks questions. Easily dodged, by misguided trust and deceit, …miss their target. Voices of reason and love catch a reflection unseen before sends a single beam of light towards the source. The gag of the silenced reflection disintegrates… a scream. The inner child is heard…bursts with blinding light. Shattering the mirror… sending the shadows to the depths. A burning pain ensues, Awoken once more, love oozes from the sleeping heart and merges with the light. Conscious awareness brightens the eyes and reveals truth… intensifying the guilt of the past. “I did it again” helps the darkness creep back in. You lower your head… defeat is close. Something raises your chin, steady and confident. The warmth of the lips fuels the light. A whisper… “You and Me.” The void dissipates… but is a constant reminder of what could have been?