Feel In Sane

Can i get into heave if i still have depression? or when i reach the pearly gates will i still feel rejection? thoughts in side my head full of anxiety, im stressin im trying i really promise, but the fear is so aggressive. So many tears, pain, fears, Brains burning and i feel sick the rooms twisting and turning. names that i hear, strain, jeers, Brains burning and im getting sick. this rooms heavily padded and it's quite concerning. People say i enjoy being sad. it'll just disappear, its just a fad. just a faze. like im living lines off of a page, of a play. switch moods like day and night, honestly just wanna hide or fade away. how can you stay, when the world feels a million miles away. yeah there's a fire deep inside me, a fight i can't control gotta hold, walk through storms, from the lightning through the cold. i am bold, i am brave, limping and crawling through each stage. some might think that im insane, but they have never felt my pain.