Feeding My Father To the Devil

The rage begins again in the very first verse
Because of my Dad’s sin, I have been consumed by this curse!
And so the battle rages inside of me, and things seem to get worse
You’ll see the many stages of my poetry; I’m blowing up my Father’s universe!

I express the hurt in my heart about growing up as a kid
This stress will not rest when I think of my Father and the things which he did
The anger I feel for this “stranger” grows, and haunting memories fill my head
A tear drop, I beg him to stop, and Heaven knows, I want him dead!

A childhood pain nearly driving me insane, is who I am today
My poetry is like cocaine getting me high; I am a samurai with my wordplay!
I’ve grown up a fighter, now as a writer, I’ve reached that level
And the heaviness on my heart gets lighter when, I think of feeding my Father to the devil!


If you've been sexually abused by a family member, know that you're not alone-
That you do have a voice.  Reach out to others!  W/love, Jimmy
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010


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Date: 11/27/2010 3:14:00 PM
Hi Jimmy, I both know and feel your pain. I'm so greatful for your stregth in sharing. Its not often that a man can do so freely... I'm am forever a fan... Lay
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Date: 7/31/2010 6:59:00 PM
this is very intense..but in a touching way. this always saddens me, i actually have a friend, he's 19, and was abused and molested by his aunt and uncle.every night they would do this to him up until the age where he was 14. i can't express how sad it makes me to hear about this, words cant really say it. now that you're a poet though, you can let it all out.sm reply ~Always&Forever Lynette
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Date: 7/25/2010 5:10:00 PM
Jimmy, one of the big things is finding you are not alone. Also, sometimes it is difficult for the victim to understand that he or she was never at fault. I've worked with approx 150 SI kids who started because of sexual abuse. If you would read A Cutter's Lament. This was written after working with my first few self harmers. These were beautiful kids fighting anger caused by sexually abusive family members. God Bless you and please keep believing in yourself. Vince
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Date: 7/21/2010 7:14:00 AM
Very strong write and message you have here Jimmy! Bravo to you for finding that voice! It is actually very good to release some of your anger through your writes...My prayers go out to you and all the others who've been abused... stay strong Jimmy! God bless!-- nikko :)
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Date: 7/20/2010 4:37:00 PM
An awesome poem Jimmy and one I am sure was difficult to write .. thankxx for sharing this horrible experience and think of the man u are today and how u have come so far ... forgive him and move on with your life as a great guy and wonderful exceptional poet...my friend.. with luv..
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Date: 7/20/2010 4:37:00 PM
Hey JAM ..can u please remind my BBF Audrey to judge her contest soon.. as P.S. pulls them after a certain amount of time not being judged.. thankxxx.. with luv..
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Date: 7/20/2010 3:07:00 PM
Don't worry Jimmy - We're all here behind you, I use my poetry as an outlet as well-I tend to hold on to fury till it explodes onto a page! I hope you always have this as an outlet to help you heal!~Tirzah~
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Date: 7/20/2010 2:52:00 PM
And prayers to you, friend. Don't worry- your father WILL be fed to the Devil... in his due time.
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Date: 7/20/2010 1:14:00 PM
There are some things I have found through trial which help #1 Your father's behavior is about him. they are his "sins" for want of a better word, they reflect only on him #2 Your response is what reflects on you. Like writing this to help others in pain. If your behavior mirrors his you only damn yourself and don't hurt him. If these "hurters" hadn't aready had the same experiences and only "bad" experiences they wouldn't have behaves so.
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Date: 7/20/2010 1:11:00 PM
Jimmy, so many children have been abused by family members, friends and others. We all have views on how they should be punished, I know mine >> James
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Date: 7/20/2010 1:02:00 PM
Abuse is a terrible thing for children to have to endure, I feel your pain in every word, even words can be abuse, calling a child stupid or ugly is a form of abuse, or even ignoring them but isn't poetry a wonderful weapon to release pain, I have used it over and over in my life, the road not always easy~~~
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Date: 7/20/2010 12:40:00 PM
JAM, I feel your pain. Rest assured that all of your friends do. Please hold on, be strong and always remember, "Greater is He that is in you than he that's in the world." Much love, PB
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