Falling Apart

falling apart i never finish what i start and i always feel dumb instead of smart. and i truly feel like im falling apart. i dont know who i am or where im going. and ive spent most of my life not ever knowing. i break down and cry for no reason. most days i dont ever feel like im truly breathing. i doubt a lot of things and trust no one. my life is a constant battle that i have never ever won. piece by piece i slowly fade away. i didnt want to go to sleep last night because i didnt even want to wake up today i know that not every thing is going to be ok. i refuse to get lost in another lie. for once in my life im going to be strong enough because im all out of crys and good byes