Exit Sign

As days go by, And the pain gets worse, I long to ride, In my hearse That "Exit Sign" Above the door, Calls to me, Like never before... I'm not a coward, I'm not a fool, But living with pain Breaks the rule... I hold back, in fear of God, And, I guess, that's kind of odd, Yet constant pain, Just gnaws away Makes me wish Today's my final day... And effects on loved ones, Escapes me not, To make them sad Not a desire I've got But pounding, twisting Endless agony Makes me wonder How much more for me That "Exit Sign" Above the door, Entices me, Promising no more Writhing pain, Pulsating misery, So very tempting, Believe you, me... Homebound, Largely bedridden The meaning of my life, Seems so well hidden To die alone, And in pain, My destiny, A life in vain.