Premiere Contest WinnerEverything I've Ever Lost

In a box full of everything I’ve ever lost, 
The first thing I’d rummage for is the patience that could’ve led me 
To your open arms at any cost 

Slow moving nights, without a trace of day-dreamt advice 
My home away from home you provided, but without a trace of a porch light 
Well I’ll find you but it’ll take so much out of me 
And I’ll hunker down and prepare for the motivation I’ll lose suddenly 
Well I don’t have the time to find everything
and here is where I put myself aside to choose priorities 

But in a box full of everything I’ve ever lost,
The first thing I would scour for
is the opportunity for mental bandages, only a damaged soul could’ve ignored  

And every ring of earth's rotation bringing me to a soured destination 
Of knowing now, that you were the glass that kept us separated
I’m antagonizing fight or flight so we establish who controls this  
My head’s too far in the clouds, I’m blind to where the runway is
And it's getting hard to tell 
of what rejections were the world’s protection 
And what were just sacrifices 

But in a box full of everything I’ve ever lost 
The first and only thing I would gaze for,
Is the paper you riveted with every metaphor  
That would’ve changed my view of you, had I not tossed 

But mistakes are the thorns that bring intimidation to every flower;
Dwelling on them won’t make you more well-rounded 
And it’s about time I started living my life in my own honor 
Cause everything I’ve ever lost, 
Took a nerve laced under skin and numbed the ends 
Before the people pleaser in me attempted to plea with one-sided amends 
That would have led me nowhere, 
With no one to carry me
So in a box full of everything I’ve ever lost,
I’m peering for ashes, post-flame 
From a shifting smile that disintegrates
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Costales Avatar
February 11, 2024 at 12:35 PM
Hi Matthew, Am still a little lost here having gone away from the forum for so long, (one item for putting in a box of lost things..lol) - but anyway, the ending is my favorite as perhaps one that may always happen to me …”I’m peering for ashes..from a shifting smile that disintegrates…” Congrats for what contest is this..(still lost here)—:(
Croft Avatar
January 29, 2024 at 9:33 AM
Congratulations on your win
Thomas Avatar
January 28, 2024 at 11:17 AM
Hey, Matthew. I am sure you can guess how impressed I was with this piece. Your careful use of language, internal rhymes and intertextuality that speaks to the larger conversation of literary poetry is evident in every single line. You evoke well-earned emotion without ever overdoing it, which is itself an art. Incredibly well done. I think this is publishable without a doubt and would highly encourage you to submit this to a journal if you haven't already. No notes :D
Bailey Avatar
January 29, 2024 at 5:11 AM
Wow thank you so much for the win and kind words! I'm glad you could see the effort behind every line, that's something I make sure every poem of mine has. I'm glad you've enjoyed my work, I will be celebrating this win!
Sidwell Avatar
January 28, 2024 at 11:13 AM
Congrats on the win and excellent poem!
Bailey Avatar
January 29, 2024 at 5:11 AM
Thank you Robert!
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