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Estranged Brew

I sometimes think
   The only way out is suicide
   But as you drink yourself to death
   I only have time to bide



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addictionmental illnesssad lovecarpe diem

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Caren Krutsinger

July 3, 2020 at 5:27 AM

This stopped me in my tracks, and made me put my weapons down.

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

July 3, 2020 at 10:44 AM

Hugs and thank you ~x

David Kavanagh

June 27, 2020 at 5:01 PM

Great stuff super mo, it’s ok to vent our demons puts life back into balance, you definitely have so much more humor to offer be it sardonic or not cheers David

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 27, 2020 at 9:48 PM

Thank you so much! Too bad "Super Dave" is already taken... ;), I will have the last laugh, or at least be laughing last. xomo! (damn, might just have to post that)

Anil Deo

June 15, 2020 at 11:36 AM

Glad you're giggling again Steel Mcgreavy. What did the eyebrow say to the eye? Met you at the corner. I have a hairy tale to tell. shalom Mo shalom Mo shalOm luv

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 15, 2020 at 7:47 PM

Gershon Wolf

June 15, 2020 at 12:30 AM

Don't quite know how to react to this one. Seems like it came of a sudden. Hope all is well, dear friend. Warmest wishes, Gershon

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 15, 2020 at 8:44 AM

My sardonic wit, putting the mo in mordacious... Stewing thoughts, but rest assured, I love life and while suicidal ideation is common place with my condition, I am too much of an optimist to throw in the death shroud. Thank you my friend, xomo <3

Heidi Sands

June 12, 2020 at 7:41 PM

Powerful , sad and to the point. I hope you are ok. Take care. Hugs :)

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 13, 2020 at 9:39 AM

Thank you Heidi, hugs to you. xo Maureen

Jan Allison

June 11, 2020 at 5:50 PM

oh gosh Mo I have just posted a poem about domestic abuse caused by drinking... the thought of someone drinking themselves to death is terrible - they are in need of help in so many ways:-( hugs Jan xx

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 12, 2020 at 7:11 AM

I will visit. He is not violent, but gets negative, angry and inconsolable. While he has improved, still any stress can set him off. Unfortunately in my PCS state, stress has consequences for me that take days to recover. However annoying (for him) I keep the conversation going. Hugs! xomo

Rhonda Johnson-Saunders

June 11, 2020 at 4:32 PM

Your poem has my heart pounding, Maureen. I hope you're ok. The drinking is definitely a slow suicide. My step-dad was only 49 when the cirrhosis got him. I can't tell you how we tried to save him, but an addict has to make the decision to get better alone. He quit 3 months before he died but the damage was done. I get so sad thinking about him, all the people who suffer with addiction and their families. Sending virtual hug, Rhonda

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 12, 2020 at 7:04 AM

Oh ouch, and my honey is 49 now, addiction took my mother at 50 (cigarettes) I'm doing okay thank you Rhonda. Truth be told, if I wasn't I wouldn't have posted this or even had the eloquence to put it into words. This was cathartic. Hugs received and returned, xomo

Rico Leffanta

June 11, 2020 at 1:47 PM

Suicide is no way out as Karma repeats the playbook until one learns to face and overcome one's problems. Why destine yourself to face the same misery over and over again? Go for happiness! Aloha! Rico

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 11, 2020 at 2:09 PM

I lean a little buddhist too. Though I've always loved the Beetlejuice take on suicide, eternity as a civil servant. Being aware of one's mortality just puts another option on the chopping block. I am fortunate, my default setting is happy. RSD my friend, xomo!

Rico Leffanta

June 11, 2020 at 1:50 PM

n.b., it isn't the booze, but the habit. Best to switch to water during the pandemic!

Anil Deo

June 11, 2020 at 6:38 AM

My dear sister in Canada, watch for Soup Mail. You are stronger than you say ... for both of you. shalom, ShalOM

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 11, 2020 at 8:19 AM

I am strong like bull. Thank you my friend. xomo <3

Kim Rodrigues

June 11, 2020 at 5:05 AM

Such a sad commentary. We wait by someone whose death looks inevitable, sometimes deadly slow. Well written!

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 11, 2020 at 8:27 AM

True dat, thank you Love. If you are not living, how are you not just waiting for death. He has the gift of forgetting, resets every morning after. I am now disengaging, which for me means not waking up with all of the anger I had to swallow the night before. I am empowered. Hugs! xomo

Michelle Faulkner

June 10, 2020 at 10:54 PM

Potent and complex, very dense and dark, Mo (are you OK? I'm a little worried..)

Maureen McGreavy Pigeon Tart

June 10, 2020 at 11:17 PM

Thank you dear! I actually am ok. It's been a rough few days, his drunk raging had set off my PCS & PTSD but that made me angry in the best possible way. I am looking after myself, able to tell him I can't talk to him when he's drunk, and walk away. (repeatedly) No fuel for the fire. Sad to watch such a beautiful man consume himself. Oh, love, you bastard lol ;), HUGS!