Erasing the Brain

"Are you sure you want to go through with this there's no turning back after I flip the switch" I'm sure, I'd rather live without knowing who I am than dying everyday knowing what happened... It all happened one after another it all happened like a plot in a book but of all people, why did it have to happen to me so before I erase my brain, I'll illustrate my pain once again I once had a family, a home to go to friends, a smile but it all faded when in slumber my home caught fire well so did I when I learned my father perished saving me Should I be grateful, I should but not when I'm the oldest of 3 and I'm only 9 The little ones, what am I supposed to tell them that daddy isn't here, he's on vacation that father isn't here, we have stay here in this shelter all our misfortune befalls on the fault of me so I sit here crumbling in guilt while mother falls ill and my best friend since we were in diapers gets hit by a car, no drunk driver at the wheel just a father with harmful means Now I'm 23, alone with 2 cats and a dog without parents, picture a Father's day for me... my siblings, they refuse to talk to me and I say I don't care but I shed tears for the lost smiles we used to share the happiness that will never be repaired Hey doc, throw the switch...while I pray I rid myself of the guilty glitch I have in my life