Ensnared and Stuck

If my demise dawns like this In penury and suffering I surely will not rest in peace But in ceaseless wondering Of soul in ghostly endevor. Why die a regular death Remembered when fogotten For when i had ample breath They spit on me like meat rotten. Why hide me behind my doors Hide me from invisible scourge Suffocating my soul in closing walls Detering my roam of courage With a mere decree of "don'ts" Now i shudder when i see the law It kills me more than cats demise A coward am i? I dont know. But i will go down with a rise I wont die a death of a mice Ensnared and stuck.