Endless Disatisfaction
It's not hate that I have for you
Nor is it love
I don't feel you hold me
You only continue to shove
I've grown up with you not around
Now you refuse to believe it could be true
My life moved on whether you were there or not
I didn't stop growing because of you
Inside me now I only feel a passion mixed with pain
Showing you that I'm not who you think I am at all
I want to prove to you that I'm not as little as you make me out to be
I too can stand up proud and tall
My Dearest Lord will protect me from your emotional blows
I no longer have to feel less
I'll walk away from your negativity with my head held high
I only ask my Lord for you to be blessed
Your satisfaction can no longer feed from my tears or insecurities
I'll bow gracefully and walk away
All the fighting, frustration, and disagreeing
You still expect me to stay?
I thought I'd be able to come to you when I was down
That was only me being a fool
My only mistake was to think you could understand
When the whole time you only told me I was full of bull
You've shattered my hopes so that you could feel superior
All so you could be right
Guess what? I'm not here to challenge your authority
I'm here to live, not to fight
I am who I choose to be, you don't approve?
Simply leave me be
The more you push and prod
The more I only want to be free
I guess I'll never be who you want me to be, but I've learned
I can only be one person, to be happy with who I am
No thanks to you
I will turn out to be an exhilarating woman
In my heart I feel this
That is what lets me know
I will make it through your cruelty
No matter how low the blow
Inspired by: My Father
Copyright © Kristen Drake | Year Posted 2005
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