End of Days

Am I smiling or accepting my sadness Ignoring my pain or enjoying my madness Am I not saying my words very clear Maybe cause I have so many bullets in my ear Let the blood flow out from my lips Watch the hypnotising rhythm as the blood drips From my grin the gore rains Watch me laugh as I blow out my brains My hands dig into my flesh The stench smells so bitter and fresh Ripping out my insides from me Now my body and soul are both empty I'm living in this timeless, mindless, self-blindness, conceded piece of **** Watch me as I cut myself out of it Searching my chest for a piece of me Trying to find some humanity Discovering I've always been heartless It is beyond fathomless Embrace the emotions that prove my existence Clutch on to my suicidal persistence Insanity can bring my comfort Only seconds till my mind will convert I’m living in this timeless, mindless, self-blindness, conceded piece of **** Watch me as I cut myself out of it Bite my lips so I taste my bitter sweet skin I indulge in my sin I will rip out my eyes and hold them facing my heart I will watch myself fall apart Prove to me that I am better off dead Show me the beauty of dread Let me hear the songs of anguish I will make the light of day vanish The void of my heart cradles my mind A cold embrace from deep inside Holding my hand through the road of lunacy Guiding me to my new beautifully foul reality To be lost is to be free I'm lost in my mind, lost my sanity Watch me break the remains of my body The broken remains of me I'm living in this timeless, mindless, self-blindness, conceded piece of **** Watch me as I cut myself out of it Watch as my hair bursts into flame Observe my hands be eaten away from shame Feel my legs as they crumble before me Taste my exasperation sing from my bloody body Watch my eyes roll back Watch my body rot to black Smell the malodorous presence that is my fading soul Watch me smile as my body grows foul Watch me smile, watch me burst with laughter Watch me sing in my new body of ashes thereafter Watch me dance in the breeze as my body fades away Watch my hatred come back to bring the end of days