Emotions get gender

Yes, I got hurted when she left, But I didn't cry, I punched on walls, I hurted my whole body , I locked myself in a room, But I didn't cry. I rushed out of my home, Drove my car the fastest, Was near to die, But I didn't cry. I stopped contacting people, I forgot my smile , My inner soul was suffering alot, But I didn't cry. Why I didn't cry? Why couldn't I shared my feelings? Why I made myself weak? An answer came " society don't even spare emotions, you are a boy so you can't cry "