Emotions Deep Within

Lost in a fantasy, eager to make it reality. Tangled in emotions, too oblivious to see. How desperate I was for a taste of your love, all those nights I begged to the one up above. I sit and swallow the liquid that makes the pain momentarily disappear. I let myself become incoherent, for there’s no one’s voice I want to hear. Dazed and lost, I drown in my own thoughts. Seems to me I’m in a battle that I’ve already fought. I am unsure if it’s made me stronger or slowly deteriorating me inside. The wall around my heart is not yet sturdy, and I failed to protect my mind. I care so much, but yet my heart is becoming cold. The games, the lies, and deceit are getting old. I don’t have time for the foolishness, I have too much to give. To be mislead and only given portions of a person is not the way I want to live. I have too much to offer and too much to share. I refuse to invest so much time and emotion on someone who doesn’t care. However, I tend to find myself in that situation. The monster that lies within my heart was nothing but my own creation. I fed myself wishful thoughts and fairytales. I continued to do so, knowing my heart might be struck with a nail. I begin to think I'll never learn. Oh that feeling of being content is something that I yearn.