Emotional Fear

I hide in my room for I am ashamed.
My memories are with me, forever reclaimed.
I keep my secrets locked away from you.
Oh how I wish, that you could be true.
If you were to see me as I see myself,
You would say to yourself, 
What a man! Great help he must need!
Face his emotions and took greater heed.
And if you were to go into my room
It's so dark, awful and so full of gloom;
Should you discover my secrets and shame,
Would you stay with me, and play in my game?

Would you look straight into my eye
And accept me truly whatever am I?
Or would you run, scared and afraid
That my destiny may not yours invade.
 
So I'll not invite you to my private shell,
Where eternal damnation is a real living hell.
Leave me alone, let me construe
That one day I might... live normally too.



PS:   Not with this darn heat !!!!
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Anaya Avatar
September 1, 2022 at 4:40 PM
The protagonist gives himself sound advice and is very wise, Victor. The unknown path has its uncanny attractions, alluring and at the same time anguishing. I really enjoyed your read ~Anaya
U.D Palawon  Avatar
August 14, 2022 at 5:11 PM
It's sheer desperation of a person gnawed by the teeth of loneliness and you showed it so perfectly with your words dear Victor. I shuddered reading it. Great! :) Sunita UPD
Tor Avatar
August 9, 2022 at 4:28 AM
Victor sometimes covers our thoughts and feelings afraid of what someone might think of us. Your afraid to share because of the negative reaction you might get or the wrong perception your trying to avoid. Sometimes its evil speaking out and that is what evil is. You intentionally created a disturbing, dark theme. You did it well because I had to shake it off when it was finished, it had an effect on me. Hope you are doing well my friend. god bless you...
Buhagiar Avatar
August 9, 2022 at 8:28 AM
Thank you for reading my two poems. Luckily I spotted them. I don't have enough time and so do not go back to check. Thanks.
Andresen Avatar
August 8, 2022 at 11:04 AM
- Do not hide in this dark cave ... emotionally sad image in this poem, Victor :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
Skelly Avatar
August 8, 2022 at 10:10 AM
Quite somber reflections from your protagonist...Delice
Marcum Wong Avatar
August 6, 2022 at 10:13 PM
This dark poem bleeds of emotional pain Victor. So well expressed. I hope you see brighter days. Blessings xxoo
Roper Avatar
August 6, 2022 at 6:43 AM
A dark verse, very well written. Many Blessings my friend.
Rose  Avatar
August 5, 2022 at 8:36 AM
so often we want to be left alone when we are feeling bad and dark thoughts pervade, but sometimes its quite the opposite, we need someone who can crash in to our shell, and accept the dark and the light of you, nicely penned, such tender thoughts make you a great writer Victor, have a blessed day,
Rodrigues Avatar
August 5, 2022 at 7:05 AM
Wow! You wrote a dark one! Great emotion! Bravo! Hugs ~ Kim
Horsman Avatar
August 5, 2022 at 1:48 AM
Love this Victor, you surly take this reader into the gloom the dark. Something different from you, enjoyed the skill and artistry of your pen.
Gorelick Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 6:48 PM
So true. We all have feet of clay. I believe so much of our past not so stellar actions can be summed up in the word cringe. Perseptive write. Robert
Buehler Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 12:57 PM
When there is no one else with whom to share, the Lord will share one's burdens. Superb writing, Victor.
Edmonds  Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 10:32 AM
We’ve all made mistakes, some that make our heart break, but people forgive as we do too, what matters is that we learn from the bad things we do. Well written Victor, though I doubt it’s all about you… Belle
Pandit Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 7:01 AM
Well composed, as always, Victor. Emotions exude throughout--though poignant is the tenor of your write. True to real life.
Kendrick Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 6:12 AM
I can feel the pain, emotion and fear within these lines. There is a sign in a church yard here that reads, "If you think 100 degrees are hot, wait until you arrive in hell." I don't know if it has drawn a crowd to come back to church or not. It does give passersby something to think about. I hope that this is just a work and not what is going on inside. If this is going on inside, seek a pastor, church counselor, or a Christain counselor with whom you can speak. I enjoyed reading this one today
Kendrick Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 6:13 AM
Victor, I appreciate the visit to my page. Your comments always bring some out of the box thoughts to mind. Sara
George Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 4:21 AM
There are thousands of reasons for you to rejoice.... ! Even at your age, you can write beautiful poetry and draw readers in hordes. You can dwell upon love and romance and write poems with such emotional intensity that will put even young lovers to shame. You may be experiencing loneliness as your dear one is not with you . But remember you had long years of blissful life with her....I am made to write so much as I trace a streak of melancholy in your recent poems !
Cunningham Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 3:23 AM
We all done things that on reflection we wished we hadn't but we can't dwell on the past, we have to learn from past mistakes and move on. Tom
May Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 3:08 AM
The gloom of emotional fear can imprison us, Very nicely penned Victor
Seeker Avatar
August 4, 2022 at 2:04 AM
A dark spot to be in and yet bliss vivified stillness sets us free! Well penned, Victor
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