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Emotional Fear

I hide in my room for I am ashamed. My memories are with me, forever reclaimed. I keep my secrets locked away from you. Oh how I wish, that you could be true. If you were to see me as I see myself, You would say to yourself, What a man! Great help he must need! Face his emotions and took greater heed. And if you were to go into my room It's so dark, awful and so full of gloom; Should you discover my secrets and shame, Would you stay with me, and play in my game? Would you look straight into my eye And accept me truly whatever am I? Or would you run, scared and afraid That my destiny may not yours invade. So I'll not invite you to my private shell, Where eternal damnation is a real living hell. Leave me alone, let me construe That one day I might... live normally too. PS: Not with this darn heat !!!!

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I Am Anaya

Date: 9/1/2022 4:40:00 PM

The protagonist gives himself sound advice and is very wise, Victor. The unknown path has its uncanny attractions, alluring and at the same time anguishing. I really enjoyed your read ~Anaya

Sunita U.D Palawon

Date: 8/14/2022 5:11:00 PM

It's sheer desperation of a person gnawed by the teeth of loneliness and you showed it so perfectly with your words dear Victor. I shuddered reading it. Great! :) Sunita UPD

Michael Tor

Date: 8/9/2022 4:28:00 AM

Victor sometimes covers our thoughts and feelings afraid of what someone might think of us. Your afraid to share because of the negative reaction you might get or the wrong perception your trying to avoid. Sometimes its evil speaking out and that is what evil is. You intentionally created a disturbing, dark theme. You did it well because I had to shake it off when it was finished, it had an effect on me. Hope you are doing well my friend. god bless you...

Victor Buhagiar
Date: 8/9/2022 8:28:00 AM

Thank you for reading my two poems. Luckily I spotted them. I don't have enough time and so do not go back to check. Thanks.

Anne-Lise Andresen

Date: 8/8/2022 11:04:00 AM

- Do not hide in this dark cave ... emotionally sad image in this poem, Victor :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)

Delice Arleen Skelly

Date: 8/8/2022 10:10:00 AM

Quite somber reflections from your protagonist...Delice

Connie Marcum Wong

Date: 8/6/2022 10:13:00 PM

This dark poem bleeds of emotional pain Victor. So well expressed. I hope you see brighter days. Blessings xxoo

Eve Roper

Date: 8/6/2022 6:43:00 AM

A dark verse, very well written. Many Blessings my friend.

Mystic Rose Rose

Date: 8/5/2022 8:36:00 AM

so often we want to be left alone when we are feeling bad and dark thoughts pervade, but sometimes its quite the opposite, we need someone who can crash in to our shell, and accept the dark and the light of you, nicely penned, such tender thoughts make you a great writer Victor, have a blessed day,

Kim Rodrigues

Date: 8/5/2022 7:05:00 AM

Wow! You wrote a dark one! Great emotion! Bravo! Hugs ~ Kim

Harry Horsman

Date: 8/5/2022 1:48:00 AM

Love this Victor, you surly take this reader into the gloom the dark. Something different from you, enjoyed the skill and artistry of your pen.

Robert Gorelick

Date: 8/4/2022 6:48:00 PM

So true. We all have feet of clay. I believe so much of our past not so stellar actions can be summed up in the word cringe. Perseptive write. Robert

Evelyn Judy Buehler

Date: 8/4/2022 12:57:00 PM

When there is no one else with whom to share, the Lord will share one's burdens. Superb writing, Victor.

Beryl Edmonds

Date: 8/4/2022 10:32:00 AM

We’ve all made mistakes, some that make our heart break, but people forgive as we do too, what matters is that we learn from the bad things we do. Well written Victor, though I doubt it’s all about you… Belle

Vijay Pandit

Date: 8/4/2022 7:01:00 AM

Well composed, as always, Victor. Emotions exude throughout--though poignant is the tenor of your write. True to real life.

Sara Kendrick

Date: 8/4/2022 6:12:00 AM

I can feel the pain, emotion and fear within these lines. There is a sign in a church yard here that reads, "If you think 100 degrees are hot, wait until you arrive in hell." I don't know if it has drawn a crowd to come back to church or not. It does give passersby something to think about. I hope that this is just a work and not what is going on inside. If this is going on inside, seek a pastor, church counselor, or a Christain counselor with whom you can speak. I enjoyed reading this one today

Sara Kendrick
Date: 8/4/2022 6:13:00 AM

Victor, I appreciate the visit to my page. Your comments always bring some out of the box thoughts to mind. Sara

Valsa George

Date: 8/4/2022 4:21:00 AM

There are thousands of reasons for you to rejoice.... ! Even at your age, you can write beautiful poetry and draw readers in hordes. You can dwell upon love and romance and write poems with such emotional intensity that will put even young lovers to shame. You may be experiencing loneliness as your dear one is not with you . But remember you had long years of blissful life with her....I am made to write so much as I trace a streak of melancholy in your recent poems !

Tom Cunningham

Date: 8/4/2022 3:23:00 AM

We all done things that on reflection we wished we hadn't but we can't dwell on the past, we have to learn from past mistakes and move on. Tom

Joseph May

Date: 8/4/2022 3:08:00 AM

The gloom of emotional fear can imprison us, Very nicely penned Victor

Unseeking Seeker

Date: 8/4/2022 2:04:00 AM

A dark spot to be in and yet bliss vivified stillness sets us free! Well penned, Victor