Elusive Love

I keep searching for love but it's elusive to me I'm a ticking time bomb and that's conclusive to see My rifle says to my head, 'lets introduce you to me' Intrusive thoughts in my mind never allow me to be This love I hold in my heart needs to be given away I do my best as a man yet no one's driven my way I need somebody to hold I often hear myself say My time it slips through my hands like tiny pieces of grain Melancholy attacks they seem to catch me off guard I pretend I'm okay while standing solemn and hard I keep my secrets inside as I have done from the start I put my gun to my head then aimed it right at my heart