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East Coast

There's this guy I used to eye
When I first moved to the country,
He's a taurus with a great smile and his mother really loved me.
Him and I were a we after I told him,
"Hey, hope you don't mind, I don't pine. I'll be honest with you here,
Yes I know that I don't know you but you should know that I admire-
Your work, the way you think, your voice and your hair."
He turned pink, started stuttering
Ugh! he was sweet, why did I ever leave him?

We were close, closer than I had ever before been.
I closed the door, I was scared I wasn't ready to wear the ring.
He looked happy that day when I asked him to sit next to me,
I didn't wanted to lie so I had to tell him, I've got more than butterflies
For someone we both just finished working with.
I think he cried, I don't remember, he was really kind about it.
I remember leaving our home, remember his sister calling me to say, "are you sure you want this?"

Was I sure? I mean, I sure do hope since no way we can change it now.
He looks happy with her, the same way he did before.
No no! you don't understand, I want nothing but the best for them.
Still sometimes when I can't sleep at night, I really do just think about it.
Could've been easy, my whole life, I could be happy and comfortable.
Good on paper but I felt trapped just like I always do,
We had it planned, our whole lives, but somehow it wasn't mine too.
I wasn't ready for all the things we had coming.
Trust me, I still am not and probably I never will be,
So I didn't ask for time, instead, I said, "I'm leaving".

I sound pathetic, but I really did love him
So I'm saying these, this'll help, I hope-
See, I know I can't change the past, I don't even want to
He seems happy, I'll cope.

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