Easing My Burden

Wanting to laugh, instead I cry. I need to accept, but I continue to defy. Hoping to find love, feeling too much hate. I want to believe, but I can't relate. I see only darkness, yet I yearn for light. I must be all wrong, but I feel I am right. I pray for peace, but I am being torn apart. I need to rebuild, though I can't even start. To set a goal, and to believe I will try. But as time passes, it becomes a lie. I want so badly to leave this burden behind. Unfortunately, I can't erase it from my mind. Knowing that all of these things are true, I ask the wind, what can I possibly do?