Ease, Don'T Carve Me Into Stone

Shortening my breath everyday Ease, don't carve me into stone I'm not quiet ready These insecurities in me, I swear there killing me So please don't judge me Just give me a minute Time to reflect On the things I've done All I regret Please don't set me into this mould yet I see this eternity as a catastrophe A never ending cycle of hurt Constantly seeking me out Chipping away at my head, pulling at my scalp Ease, don't carve me into stone I beg I'm not sure if I can do it Loose myself to something as this I felt the flutter A butterfly under the skin This decision will determine everything But a life as this in my hands With all the bad things I 've done How can I decide the fate of a human As I'll never be particular in weather you should have tea for breakfast or cider Eating pudding before your food hasn't been a problem for me I have no right in saying what's best for this life I'm a dribbling mess most of the time Why do people not take these things into consideration before reproducing This act could determine all of eternity Like a spider web deciding how many birds will hatch Everything is connected This child could be, when it's grown inside of me The balance between good and evil As thoughts of responsibility consume me And motherhood looms Ease don't carve me into stone Don't know if I'll make it alone