Dreaming vs reality

Today, lying on the hospital bed. The professionals asked me to relax. It was only a simple medical procedure, There was no anesthetic to put me to sleep. I wished to hear some music, That would be perfect. Then, first thing came to my mind, Was you standing by my bedside. Held my hand and sang me some lullaby. Well, that was what I wished, It would only be in my dream, and It could never be fulfilled. Then, somehow there were mistakes, The procedure must be repeated. Again, while taking some big breaths to relax, Immediately, your face appeared in my head. Why was I so naive and stupid? Tried having something out of reach. Wanted something that could never be. Wake up, what was wrong with me. It was only a fantasy. Nothing would ever be. Should be back to cruel reality. He has already left me. Bye bye BB Bye bye 66. Every word I said, it was true and absolutely true. For that, I can guarantee you. I have told you, I could not lie, Especially when it came to you. Every good thing must come to an end. How soon and bad, it all depends.