Draining the Ocean

I’ve suppressed so much inside of me, positive and negative. The accumulation has grown to the size of an ocean. However large I protect it discreetly, with great precision and intensity. This creates a dilemma, now that I feel God leading me into a place of greater expression, a place that will lead to the draining of my coveted ocean. In this place the days of the small, sprinkle-sized expressions come to an end I’m scared of this place. If my ocean is drained you will see who I really am - that is my biggest fear. My mind hates this, but my Spirit knows I need this It’s all so crazy, but if God is truly behind this I know He is not the author of confusion. With that said, I guess it’ll all just have to make more sense as my coveted ocean drains….