Does Our Rage Come From Rebellion

We should blame our bad habits for our illness and take the heaviness off our chest doing some profound reflection: does our rage come from rebellion, or our stubbornness to admit failures, not following intuition, only wits? Could Heavenly Mercy be denied to us eternally? Is it hard to turn around and repair damage? Too little concern and endless anguish conflict with each other until we'll perish; We have missed the blessing constantly, thinking that no harsh punishment would be given to us through sinful conduct; we tarnished this image to avenge purity, and be less concerned about our pilgrimage to the House that's never without light? Who opposes to bow down will be condemned, I bow down, ask for divine mercy and plead! A slow return to awareness is compelled by spiruality and that sense of great bond; I'm returning to the old life of worrilessness where all roses despite their colors had a scent and this boy didn't hesitate a bit to bring some to his mom awaiting; wasn't joy a possession never appreciated: when the simplest things had an impact on each emotion intensely exploding? Wasn't happiness the source of all we loved, and a declaration of devotion to mother and God? Could anyone explain what defiance amounts to, and which consequences we cannot undo? Does our rage that comes from rebellion? Can He take us back and end all frustration? Inflict pain on anyone and God can be far from kind; enrage Him and everything becomes chaos for the mind!