Does Anyone Care?

Does anyone care about all the pain that I’m going through? Does anyone know that suicide is what I feel the need to do? Does anyone care besides the good lord his self? Sometimes it seems as if he’s not listening either, sometimes I just feel all by myself. Is there anyone out there who understands my feelings? Sometimes it seems as if god could not even begin the healing. Only because I’ve got so much hurt and anger inside my heart, day by day I feel like I’m falling apart. Does anyone care that every night I cry myself to sleep? It’s not going to get any better, or at least that’s how it seems. Why doesn’t anybody hear my cries? Sometimes I just want to go ahead and die. At 25 years old, I can’t even remember how many times I’ve been raped, the first time was when I was only ten years of age. My mom didn’t believe me which broke my heart yet again, when will somebody care? When will all this end? It’s almost like my whole family just laughed at everything I’ve went through, sometimes I just want someone to tell me the words I love you. I feel like even god will not be there, I just wish I knew if there was someone out there who really does care.*