Diving Deep

What is it that keeps me Diving so deep into a look, A word, a feeling, a name For something eternal A connection to what A past, a present, a future This dark stagnant soul Starving for energy Drawn to the edge Of the big black hole That sucks you To somewhere Anywhere Someday But for now There's baby smiles Birdsongs Fresh rain Morning coffee And a face That knows yours Even when it's long gone Diving for nothing really To squeeze the last juice Of this existence As if there'd be another face And time to know it Thank God for the baby's smile Waking up to birds singing Coffee And, well You, my ghost Kept your vow Even after the one And so many other Little deaths You don't part I can dive to the bottom Of everything I see Everyone I meet And you know I will Damn it And all there's left Is the baby's smile Birds singing after fresh rain and coffee I've already dove so deep and found myself So many, too many, times in The only place I've ever been