Disguise

As soon as I attempt to close my tired eyes the visions begin to haunt
Restlessly, I toss and turn
And the visions continue to taunt

I desperately attempt to disguise all of my pain with the illusion of a happy heart
But, my sorrow is growing everyday
And I am slowly continuing to fall apart

My world in which I once lived had vanished into thin air
Part of me yearns to find it
While the other part of me does not care

I live each day consumed with the fear of proceeding accompanied by the fear to not try
Standing there as if frozen
Running out of excuses as to why

I seem to have misplaced the drive which I once held inside of me
It has stolen all my hopes and dreams 
Glancing upon my reflection I no longer recognize what I see

I find myself unable to describe this emptiness which cages me like a slave
My daydreams are no longer of happy thoughts
Instead I find myself daydreaming of my grave

I continue to hold onto one thought which soothes me although it is of my dismiss
I think of the end 
A happy place where I no longer have to hide behind a disguise
Copyright © | Year Posted 2018


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Date: 9/17/2018 6:18:00 AM
Danielle, this is an excellent write! Although so sad. I have been to this place many times so I felt my heart stir with each line. We are the sensitive souls of this world...we carry the torch and the light. Stay strong! It gets better. It always gets better! You are never alone. Be well!
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Danielle Brunelle
Date: 9/18/2018 8:44:00 PM
Thank you
Date: 7/16/2018 8:51:00 AM
Danielle.. although I like your ending, your daydreams scare me. Change your surroundings!! Hopefully this is just well written fiction..
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Danielle Brunelle
Date: 7/16/2018 11:30:00 AM
I wrote this many years ago and yes it is fiction
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