Disarray

I met him when I was young He was always puzzling, a confusion Causing me to wonder at my ideas And making me dread my fears He was the best football player And had all the right moves with ladies I happened to be one of his favorites And I never could seem to say no to him He always left me feeling like a game That he’d played so appropriately Given me that kiss and gentleness Only to leave me with a loss of intimacy As I grew older, I still gave in to him With all the hysteria he brought to me Messy days with chaotic twists in the hours Feeling like a jumble of emotions inside Then came a day when I said no more of him I left him there looking confused and panicked With only a last kiss, a hug and a whisper That said I’ve broken that pull you had on me Finally, I can say that I’m strong and fierce Feeling like a woman with the confidence I need To reach out toward a man who won’t use And confuse me with their continual disarray November 15, 2019 Disarray Poetry Contest Sponsored by: Nina Parmenter