Dirt

Look What is the matter With me I'm not Myself my brain Is scattered it's splattered Like a shattered mirror Anything that's ever mattered Has left me here To deal with My own fear I climb the ladder Because the wheel won't steer Please do I go slow Do I wait right here Please tell me How high does this go I can't hang on anymore I feel myself slipping Wake up on the floor I must be tripping But i'm not sure I'm alert but My concern Is dispersed That I'm sure Is a lesson learned In life ya deal with love And ya deal with hurt You think twice About situations that Might put you in dirt I'm not playin Tables turnt Ya ass gets burnt Cocaine white as Kobane Kurt Brains won't stay When a 12 GA Blow em up Like fireworks Drugs and booze Sex and candy Pirex and brandy Are awful handy When you can't withstand it Gotta gas up and expand it Cloud 9 can cram it I'm on a different planet No I'm not stranded I'm just not standin Medication granted Sedated feelings roll Over everything I've known See I know  I've felt alone I've seen the snow The grass won't grow If the weeds take over Where the flowers go Showers of hope The Air smells of roses The towers doors Won't  open Theve permanently closed em The wind is blowin Storms like clothin Like a scar that bust open A volcanic eruption Some days i can't even function It's the drugs that Seduct me  Time spins I have no luck see What gives Maybe if I Drift off then I'll be ok Do u know can anybody Show me the way Because the darkness is Around the way The lights fading away I'm so tired of feeling This way day after day Wired but won't play Inspired but colors grey Happy goes away Then it begins to rain Man What happened to me Where'd I run to Been spun around So much Like a gun that's Trigger is stuck What the is up In my world The sky is down the ground is up Sounds profound But it astounds me like I'm struck... By a bolt Of lightning Something so frighting Can be so inspiring Snow can't be firey So 6 ft below Can't be a diary