Didn'T You See Mother

Didn't you see,that I loved you so? I never wanted ,to let you go. Didn't you see,how hard I tried,to please you? I would have to start over,and try something new. What did I do,that was so wrong? I stood in the background, and tried to stay strong. All I ever wanted,was for you to love me. But, now you're gone,and still can't see. Couldn't you see that everything I did ,was all out of love. Now,it's too late,you're with the Lord above. Maybe someday,it will be me you'll love. You will be as gentle as a morning dove. I tried to get there before you went away. I didn't make it,and now I must pay. I feel so guilty,and I don't know why. I missed telling you goodbye, and it upset me so,and I began to cry. Didn't you see the love I had inside? The Lord only knows , how hard i've tried. Didn't you see,how easy it was? To love me too,just because. My childhood is only a memory now. I struggled and fought, and survived it somehow. If I had it to do over,I wouldn't try anymore. I'd turn around and walk out the door. I still love you,I really do. But, my life before was ever so blue. I made my life what it is today. But somehow,it seems, my life before now,was all a bad dream. My life is good today,but somehow in my mind,I feel I still must pay. I know in my head that somehow,this should end. But, my love for my mother, I will always send.