Diamond In the Rough

I am breaking down inside
These walls are falling down,
The ropes are becoming untied

How can I explain what is going on
When I am mute and lonely
How to explain this black swan

Life is changing before my eyes
I am the middle, yet the oldest
And I deal with these nightly cries

Why do I have to sacrifice so much?
For an older sister
Who is out of touch

Why am I keeping balance steady
When I am drowning in ruin
I am not ready

I am sick everyday
Having to rough it out,
And pretend in every way

Why do I ask, but want no answer
Can't we rewind life
I wanted to be a ballerina, or a dancer

Life is tough for all
But I am searching for the eject button
I'll fly high, then fall

You don't understand the cracks in my heart
Where you put yourself forth
And set me apart

And here I am like glue
Keeping these pieces together
Stuck to all of you
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Chutani Avatar
August 24, 2014 at 6:57 PM
Princess, inner feelings expressed very well. hope you got the eject and found peace with creative self. Mohan
Chutani Avatar
August 24, 2014 at 7:51 PM
everyone struggles in this world. one needs to learn to accept them and make peace with self ultimately. One's creativity in positive directions can do wonders. requires only small steps at a time. god is kind and always lends support. we do not know his ways of doing so but having faith itself heals. light and love, Mohan
Xia Avatar
August 24, 2014 at 7:32 PM
The struggles really get to me when I am at the point of writing about them. The release I feel after having written isn't much of a release at all... just that the real world has corrupted my dreams.
Eastman Avatar
August 23, 2014 at 1:07 PM
You're great at expressing your feelings on paper. I hope it helps... Remember, you're never alone, even when you think you are... And we'll be reading and listening.
Xia Avatar
August 24, 2014 at 7:31 PM
Thank you.. Having support helps
Lindley Avatar
August 23, 2014 at 11:34 AM
Hang in to triumph. Write your thoughts, sling the ink and do not let your heart sink! Although you may fail to see it now there is a light at the end of that long dark tunnel. Trust me, I know so well of that which I speak! Great write!!!
Xia Avatar
August 24, 2014 at 7:30 PM
I've been walking through a tunnel, ran to a dim light I saw... it was just a firefly.
Richards Avatar
August 22, 2014 at 9:28 PM
There is a lot said between the lines of this poem......one can imagine some real feelings expressed. I hope it helps to write them out! Good wishes Xia !!
Xia Avatar
August 23, 2014 at 10:55 AM
Writing is an escape. When I write about my troubles, then people should worry... because that mean it's really getting to me.
Yvonne Avatar
August 22, 2014 at 9:25 PM
you are a wonderful writer. lots of love.
Xia Avatar
August 23, 2014 at 10:54 AM
Thanks Maurice
Nance Avatar
August 22, 2014 at 8:45 PM
Oh hugs, sometimes things don't go the way it is planned. you are strong and who you are is wonderful. xox
Xia Avatar
August 23, 2014 at 10:54 AM
thank you
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