Diagnosis

Just a small but nagging pain
that wouldn’t go away,
but ‘she’ll be right’- so I thought,
until my judgment day.

My judgment day was not the end;
no not eternal life,
it was the day I’m diagnosed
to mention I’m in strife.

Beneath the surface questions rise.
Could I be dying? Will I live?
As I consider what may be,
and all is negative.

And negative I’m told is bad,
but how else can I feel!
I’m diagnosed - but deep inside,
I don’t believe it’s real. 

And yet the folk I run beside
who know my feeling well,
forever talk the positive …
dismissing what is hell.

And as each day is passing by
since diagnosing took my breath.
The best advice I have so far -
is diagnosis isn’t death!
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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June 27, 2020 at 2:08 PM
I can so relate to this and am thankful have been blessed and cured. For those waiting for the results can seem like forever and the news is not always good. Hope all is well with you and your family. We are all okay here. love phyl
Laurie Avatar
July 12, 2020 at 12:11 AM
Hello Phyllis … keeping safe I trust? The wait is what near sends anyone insane. Yes, we're well Phyllis, but we're back in lockdown. The virus has returned worse than ever - thanks once again Phyllis - Lindsay
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June 26, 2020 at 11:05 PM
Lindsay, I appreciate the feelings with which this muse must have been written. But we all have no choice but to be positive and move on. And thanx for your visits to few of my poems. Best. Mohan.
Laurie Avatar
July 12, 2020 at 12:07 AM
Hello Mohan … no matter what. Keeping a positive outlook is half the battle. Pleasure to read your poetry Mohan - Lindsay
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June 23, 2020 at 9:02 AM
Yes true, diagnosis should be more relieving to hear than death in the forecast. So we all need this great bright poem that can inspire those who receive various diagnosis. Kudos for rhyming superbly in fab flow. ......................... -------------- Plz pleez do read and comment my newest piece, a prose and do also read the articles and data I have copy pasted in comment section below the poem so you will confirm the matter further.
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:49 PM
Hello zaynab … thank you for your positive comment zaynab. I have read a few of your poems and will read more in the coming weeks - thank you zaynab - Lindsay
Wolf Avatar
June 22, 2020 at 6:46 PM
There you go. For sure, you're right. 1/2 the time the diagnosis is wrong anyway. These 'doctors' are like weather forecasters, who get yesterday's weather right 1/2 the time. lol. Thanks, Lindsay!
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:41 PM
Hello Gershon … I'll admit I smiled when reading your weather forecasters quote. I've stated forecasters and politicians can be interchangeable. I agree; doctors are known to bury their mistakes - thanks Gershon - Lindsay
Proxenos Avatar
June 22, 2020 at 2:37 PM
Hi Lindsay, it shows here how concerned we all are with this poem - we all have down days, I would like to believe that this is the case. Blessings my friend, Jennifer.
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:36 PM
Hello Jennifer … It's not for me Jennifer, but the friends and everybody else who goes through this fearful process. Being positive is the best natural ready to support what else is needed - thank you Jennifer - Lindsay
Rodrigues Avatar
June 22, 2020 at 5:19 AM
Wow, Lindsay. A hug from me to you. Not a fun moment and one we all hope not to hear. xx
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:28 PM
Hello Kim … the test is the first worry, then comes the diagnosis, and after that being positive. You are correct; nobody wants to hear bad news on their health - thank you Kim - Lindsay
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June 21, 2020 at 2:30 PM
I do not know what you were diagnosed with. But I know the feeling of being told I had cancer, so I hope you did not hear the same from your doctor. I am four years now cancer free and not following doctor orders because their "after care" crap did me in. So whatever ails you, listen to your heart, my friend and keep up the positive thoughts.
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:20 PM
Hello Andrea … I'm fine, but have friends who have gone through similar situations as you did. Being positive and going with your heart takes away much of the doubt - thank you Andrea - Lindsay
Ball Avatar
June 21, 2020 at 9:33 AM
My friend as one who has survived throat cancer I tell you true faith and a positive attitude is essential. I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless, JB
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:14 PM
Hello Judy … I am okay but have friends who have gone through worrying times. I can't agree with you more about faith and being positive. The mind is a very powerful doctor - thanks Judy - Lindsay
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June 21, 2020 at 7:23 AM
Lindsay, I pray you will be okay! The last line is the most important. Janice
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:10 PM
Hello Janice … I'm fine Janice, but many people get diagnosed with problematic diseases and must go through a very worrying period indeed - thank you Janice - Lindsay
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June 20, 2020 at 11:32 PM
Thank you, Lindsay, your rhyme could not have been penned better, a diagnosis does not mean death that's true but the wake up call to the possibilities of death is hard to swallow. I sincerely hope that you are feeling much better Take care... Shirley
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 10:06 PM
Hello Shirley … thankfully this poem is not about me, but I have friends who have gone through the worrying process and are well now. The diagnosis comes as a shock indeed - thank you Shirley - Lindsay
Sands Avatar
June 20, 2020 at 3:20 PM
Very well written Lindsay. I hope you are ok. Sometimes people go through such horrible things and need validation because the positive does not always work. I had a death sentence with cancer years ago and overcame it. I remember thinking about death and drinking supplement Mangosteen juice which I swear saved me. You ended the poem with truth for many. Well done :)
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 9:00 PM
Hello Heidi … I am fine but I'm always saddened when someone I know has had bad news. I'm pleased to read that you come through your harrowing time. Reading your comment reminded me how powerful our mind can be - thank you Heidi - Lindsay
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June 19, 2020 at 11:32 PM
Keeping positive is the secret. Even if the doctors give you a death sentence don’t accept that and let it become manifest. My mother-in-law was told she would die in three months. I told her not to listen to the doctors. She lived eight more years. I hope this diagnosis is not about you but if is it is please keep positive. Don’t let the fears get the best of you. Blessings Connie xxoo
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 8:52 PM
Hello Connie … no, it's not about me. Doctors can be terribly wrong with their diagnostic outcomes, and having the will to live is half the battle - thanks Connie - Lindsay
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June 18, 2020 at 4:05 PM
Wow! This truly is powerful. Sometimes a person's state of mind can affect the way their body handles illness. Those last two lines really put it into perspective. I hope you are well and that this is not a problem you are facing now. Great writing, Lindsay! Hugs, Carolyn
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 8:48 PM
Hello Carolyn … oh yes, I'm fine. This verse was written for a friend who went through a tough time. Mentally it knocked him around badly - thank you Carolyn - Lindsay
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June 18, 2020 at 3:58 PM
Powerful well written Lindsay,
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 8:45 PM
Hello Timothy … thanks for taking the time to read and leave a comment - Lindsay
Leffanta Avatar
June 18, 2020 at 1:51 PM
What is an opinion worth? We have learned from COVID-19 that many, many tests are in error - just like when you went to school! Aloha! Rico
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 8:43 PM
G'day Rico … yes, with COVID!9, the world is in a panic state and there is much confusion. Eventually a vaccine will be found, but until then, many errors will occur - thanks Rico - Lindsay
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June 18, 2020 at 12:34 PM
Hello Lindsay Laurie, we are always nervous to hear the results of your test. So we get nervous,expecting the worse.Then relived to hear good news. Enjoy your day my friend.
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 8:38 PM
Hello Darlene … so true Darlene. Between the test and diagnosis can be a very consuming and worrying time - thank you Darlene - Lindsay
Callus Avatar
June 18, 2020 at 4:08 AM
Those diagnoses can have an impact of a psychological nature, but many times we make mountains out of molehills, and worry unduly! Yes....staying positive is part of any cure. Regards // paul
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 8:35 PM
Hello Paul … my very word; the mind is a powerful source in helping recovery. No matter what, a proper diagnosis is needed for the fight ahead - thank you Paul - Lindsay
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June 18, 2020 at 3:24 AM
So true Lindsay, we all have many a scare as we get older but it's best to always stay positive. Tom
Laurie Avatar
June 26, 2020 at 8:32 PM
Hello Tom … medical research has come such a long way with more and more terminal diseases being not so terminal - thank you Tom - Lindsay
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