Devil In Disguise

I am not who you think I am you don't know me at all I am who I pretend to be to get you to trust me and gain your respect and love I am not genuine or sincere I have no goodness inside I am lost, lonely and afraid Just like the miserable coward I am You can't see the real me because I lock her away from view when others are around, I pull out the charm I make jokes and smile at everyone but no one sees what I do they don't know the truth that when the lights go out and it is just me laying awake alone in bed who I really am that person is no one's friend and she has no soul she is just a shell of a person no hope, no passion, no love no feeling at all numb to the core of her very existence with no end in sight every day she wakes up and starts the act again the phoniness is everywhere in her eyes, in her smile, in her words and especially in her actions she treats you so well you can never guess the monster that rages under it all the cool exterior is just a front a mask worn to keep the truth hidden if you only knew what I really was you would run far and fast from me and you would forget you ever met me for I am not good or noble or inspiring I am the biggest phony full of hypocrisy and jealousy and greed I am selfish and disingenuous with no regard for you or anyone else around I am the devil and you should run away before I destroy you and take you away to the same eternal hell I am living in every day nu