Determination Shall Overcome

i have a friend who wants his life to end. he is no longer happy and can no longer pretend. he grabs the gun and points to his head. he takes a deep breath and sits down on the bed. but nothing happened, no more bullets were inside. it didn't work and with relief i sighed. with his face in his hands he thinks of another way out. his eyes scream with pain, i know what he wants beyond any doubt. i told him i'll be here no matter what might go wrong. he shouldn't be alone, i have to be strong. he stands on the side, ready to take his last plunge, but can't seem to gather the strength to jump with a lunge. my heart is screaming, i can't believe my eyes...i can't let him end it but if i stop him it is i who he will despise. "thank you for being here," he says to me. "i want you to help me count down from three". as i closed my eyes, they now being drenched with tears...how can a boy have this many fears? don't you remember the time we met? he turned to face me, his cheeks both wet. more memories came out with speed. this was my way to stop him and for him not to succeed. i have to die..i'm not who you think. his tears were washed away with one big blink. he faced the world once more and said.."there are lies down there and all in my head". i promised i wouldn't assist my friend in any way..but i have to do something to make him stay. before his last foot left for his death, i grabbed his arm before he could lose his last breath. i drew him closer, he looked so stunned. i told him i couldn't let him take that last plunge. as his cries grew quiet, i started to suspect. his behavior was off, not what i'd expect. he handed me a tube with nothing in it that i could see. he whispered, "i'm sorry" and i fell to one knee. how could i fail my one true friend? how could i have missed this in the end? in my arms he slipped away, and i wondered if he is now happy and no longer felt astray. my friend is now gone and lays at rest...he starts a new journey and begins his new quest. i will never forget that sad and lonely guy..for he will always be with me, i love you good-bye.