Depth of the Darkness

Depth of the Darkness Where I am Unknown even to me The dizziness Dis-orientations linger here or Maybe there I am not quite sure Other than I have drowned Emptiness overcomes even The sadness Eyelids, do I have them? Emptiness you see is a blindness Seeping into the nether lands of my heart No longer caring Or daring Hidden in the darkness At all the staring BANG Thunder Struck by a fantasy Off I go, on the expressways of tears Lights bright, then darkness Darkness then bright lights I am sitting now In someone's Den, maybe mine? Caressing, holding Yet............... There I am so silent Alive? SMILING I am smiling right into a smile A smile stares back Filled with a warmth Never before felt In this lifetime or the ones before Seconds become minutes Become hours No words are spoken There exists but a tenderness Of thoughts Passing from me to the smiling one From her to me Fear of breaking the spell Is this the full accounting of it all? Have the gods balanced the books? Of all things I expose to her The debits and credits Why I have no idea But she is smiling, always smiling I see colors Plump wonderful huggable colors I never saw before My oh such wonderful thoughts Slowly, both so fearful Memories entwined with pains shared Outstretched arms reaching Radiant, solar is her smile Angelic in an earthly way A smile of all things Filled with a bouquet of love In eyes that have voices Skies so clear Filling with clouds Floating There I am Back into the night Of eternal darkness As I toss the key to all in the wind Having been robbed of all emotions In a haze of nothingness There is still a little pain And a seed of hope As the soul rots a little more Into the sands Lacking passion Is humanities only crime