Depressed

Every time I try to feel alive, I just want to run and hide. The emotion is too much to bare, I want it to go I don't care, About the consequences, Ive used all my defences. I want it to go, anywhere but here. Questions going over in my head, I want them to go. Too much confusion, I can’t do this on my own. To afraid to ask for assistance, So instead I keep my distance, So I suffer all alone. Deep in my mind is all my fear, Not knowing where to go from here. Everyday exactly the same, Same old cycle, driving me insane. What do I do from here? What do I do with my fears? How do I cope each day? I want to no that I’ll be ok, I want this feeling to go away.