Depressed

My mind is boggled down My chest feels wrapped too tight, Just wanna curl up in a ball Sure as hell don't wanna fight. I wanna lean back in my chair Close my eyes and float away Cause the sh* that's piling up. Is just too much for today. My eyes are feeling heavy My heart is beating low-- Insides bunched up in a knot Don't know where the heck to go. They tell me not to think about it, So I try to let it slide. I sit here in my quiet grief And I'm all tore up inside. "These feelings won't last forever" I've heard that a time or ten. I'm not worried 'bout forever, I just need this crap to end. So I sit here in my easy chair; The words are flowing out. They have a healing power-- Of this I have no doubt. My mind is boggled down Today I cannot fight; So I'll sit back in my chair, And try my best to write. D H Loewen Dec 11/17