Delving Deeper

The comment hurt and I withdrew My response was brief as I promptly ended our conversation Thoughts flooded through my mind "He doesn't need me" "He has her now" A truth that I sometimes still find difficult to accept We shared a special, one-of-a-kind connection A mutual, multi-level intimacy that we both cherished and carefully tended A bond that neither of us had ever had with anyone else... Everyday, I am reminded of what I need to do to avoid getting hurt Honour the boundaries I've put in place Establish and reestablish those lines Yes, I have made progress... And yet, here I am Dodging strikes and curveballs that life loves to throw Feeling side-swiped and unsettled by another round of letting go Knowing that engaging only makes me want to delve in deeper The way I'm used to The way WE used to And that's where my big heart gets me into big trouble You'd think I would know by now Because it lures and leads me to the place I've worked so hard to stay away from The place that always ends up leading me...here