Delusions of the Mind

this urge inside Its not my plan It whispers in my ear Ideas that I’d rather not hear Soft and slow Until the point of no return I place my nail upon my skin Jagged and able to pierce my skin I fall asleep And the pain is gone Hours lonely I cant feel the same No one knows what its like to feel This urge inside The stress I feel The scars I hide I only want what’s best Locked away some where Deep inside my heart still beats The rhythm of my heart Is off beat with my mind and soul But I keep on keeping on I wish this nightmare Would just go away Go back To a place where I love Go back and see my love I try so hard to feel better To get well But my universe is fractured My mind is indignant, As I lay me down to sleep I know the lord Is helping my soul to keep