"deep Thoughts"

My world keeps going even with no feelings on the outside, sometimes I feel like I'm living a lie. Things don't seem to matter much anymore. my life has changed so much from the way that is was before. I feel caged in this cold world, but I know that I have to strong because I have a eight month old baby girl. I'm trying to be the best woman that I can be, but sometimes it seems as if nobody else can see. I wish somebody else could understand the way that I feel, my thoughts get so deep sometimes that they don't seem real. I feel like a candle just burning, waiting to go out, I pray and ask god what my purpose here is all about. I sit and I think about my life every night, I try to figure out what I'm doing wrong and what I'm doing right. I try and I try to go the right way, it just seems harder and harder every single day. The tests that god allows me to go through, they make me stronger, but they are still very difficult to do. I just don't know how long I can be strong, I just need the lord to help pick me up and carry me along. I'm sure that somebody out there can relate to me, but all I can say is just keep your faith in the lord, and happy you will always manage to be.