Deep Pain In Love

As I stare into space I find my hand clasping over my face, Catching the words from my mouth, its clear I am in shock my screams cry out. The physical pain in my chest, the anxiety in my stomach, The sickness, my shallow breath. I’m sorry I couldn’t have been more kind, I’m sorry I couldn’t have been more kind. I can’t carry on- sitting and being strong, Holding this together and hoping that you come back and we will be forever. How can something so pure and true, go wrong within what seems a day or two. I stare at my phone, check my e-mails, someone help me? I feel so alone. I’m sorry I couldn’t have been more kind, I’m sorry I couldn’t have been more kind A deep feeling of dread and panic, That I will never be able to get through another minute. I acknowledge that I pushed and pushed, I recognise that I should have and could. I’m sorry I couldn’t have been more kind. I’m sorry I couldn’t have been more kind. At last calmness washes over me, Thank you- I feel I am free. In deep anguish comes light and clarity, The only person I was punishing....... was me. Thank you for being so kind, thank you for being so kind.