Deeling With Fealings

My heart is pounding in my chest real loud The moment we met eye to eye in a crowd Expressing myself in bizarre ways you don't understand Obsessing with the past and I've lost my head in a long lost land Mere frustration, Taking advantage of me Kill lamentation... Rubble of trouble Is what I tread on these days I'm a grief puddle Try to change me Be careful, I might bite I wanna be a part of your nightmares and haunt you with spooky glee I might explode Don't try my patience Fighting an uphill battle Racing with a thousand cattle I'm not a good blood anymore You are the mysterious island I explore Speechless all the time It's distressing honestly Collecting gross grime Forgiveness I need I pray for humility To get rid of greed I cross my heart and I pray to God I'll be with you as long as I live You keep telling me your insecurities and downfalls...and I'm submissive I wear you in my memory like a tattoo on rough skin Stay with me forever, I don't want this night to end - you're my friend and kin I died a thousand times, trying to figure out my purpose in life Tragedy in reverse cuts me like a jagged knife...tearing me into pieces of misery and strife I need your sympathy and your inspiration right now Life ain't easy, I get it, but I'm falling apart somehow I look at you and you are the desire fire that begins to burn Forgiveness is what you give me in return...I watch my oceans of tears churn Is it my turn to be by your side when you're fading away? You and I are drifting into our mindless fantasy Faith and praise I owe To God Most High, my Father Who has gracious glow Neglecting His Word - I'm sorry I was in vain I'm a caged-up bird Diligence in prayer - Haven't accomplished it yet Angry...in error... You walked away You vanished suddenly I lost the race today Slowly, recharging my bravery I didn't mean to start a riot Compared to you, I'm nothing special You were the warrior that was fought While you're on your journey, I'll be standing tall Pound to the rhythm of my heart Pound to the rhythm Pound to the rhythm of my heart Trying to forget the shadows of you, Deeling with fealings out of the blue Deeling with fealings that are revealing my true colors... My wild, reckless natures...it's hard to find emotional cures