Decode Before Its Too Late

My feelings are cryptic, not even I can decode the meanings I hate that because it hinders me from expressing my true feelings It pushes people away and I can see it while its happening But its like seconds before death...standing by while its flashing Why do I suffer from this torture, torment, and depression I feel many feelings, anger, jealousy, love, all but progression Tears knock in a frenzy at my cornea, begging to come out Words eagerly waiting, but I remain silent to avoid a shout Im a broken man with no one to call for a fix My emotions have been constantly and redundantly messed with I always give 100% when it comes to love But for some reason I always feel like my partner isn't giving me enough Is that because its true or am I just confused? I you gave someone your all and received zero...what would you do? Some way I have to get out of this self inflicted prison from within the mind Because im making it hard for her, so im running out of time All I can do now is pray to God for an answer Before I call her....get a dial tone....no answer