December 8th

I guess I should be jealous I guess I should feel motivated To transform into someone else like you But really I'm not And I just want to stay even though I'm well aware Of all of these addictions, infections, and disorders I'm well aware Of what's truly right and wrong Don't need to rub it in 'Cause I can't see your views It's crazy to realize That a year has almost passed us A year full of regret, drugs, and lies The firsts and the lasts Maybe a time of settlement's ahead And the new I ran into Never seemed to stay but I don't mind It's just funny to know that The ones I've been searching for Have been beside me all this time Your words of reflection Always seemed to reel me in It's just a little silly To know they weren't the seduction It was only the title I let you hold Was what lead me to this year's Another reminder of what's real and untrue Was all I couldn't ask for Now they're all in front of me