Decay

For a moment Life feels like how it's supposed to be For a moment I can tell my mom that I am free For a second You become the forgotten memories For a second I know where I'm meant to be But for hours I've drowned my sorrow in tears For hours I've wondered if the knife was near For days I've sold my body to wandering eyes For days I've spat on my own pride And for weeks I've distanced myself from friends For weeks I've disdained myself with men For months My corspe has been lying in the coffin Nailed and sealed by the rotten dreams For months I've tried to find myself in you While you stranded my songs on the haunting hill But for years I've built a shelter So when I'm lost I know where to sail For years I've created a haven Shielding from the woe of the failing dreams