Death Seems Appealing ( a Man's Desperate Cry)

There was a time when I was hopeful When the world seems to be a place joyful Living this life was very delightful Inspite of the illness that was so painful I fooled myself to believing that I'm wanted When the truth is I am not really needed I told her what I wanted and begged and pleaded She declined and now to be dead is what I want instead A morbid loneliness now tears at my soul Oh help me God but I am no longer whole I can't have back the woman fate stole My world is now as black as coal I now feel like I can no longer stand the pain In purgatory my soul will always remain In fighting for life I now have nothing to gain Forever my heart will be singing a sad refrain It turned to be wrong all the things I was believing It wasn't true the things my soul had been perceiving I now know that I am really in truth nothing Knowing this in my heart makes death seem so appealing