Dearest Mama

Words like vomit Disgusting horrible things spewing from your mouth The mouth that used to form the words “I love you” Oh how the times have changed.. As children I’m sure we were just so easy To persuade.. To decieve….. To control……. See, little ones don’t ask the hard questions The ones that have difficult answers… They don’t realize what’s going on They can’t see the whole picture.. Comprehend it. They don’t understand That one day.. Their vision will clear Ignorance is bliss but now it’s gone Obliterated Now mommy and daddy are Always fighting Screaming..shouting.. Violence that only happens on the inside of these shaking walls Things that would normally would be kept inside brushed away to the back of your mind…Shoved Away.. Come spilling out all at once. Apalling..cruel….heinous indications…assumptions.. Thoughts that should’ve been banished from your mind to begin with Are flowing from your angry tongue The lips that used to whisper “I love you” Ruining any chance of redemption Any possibility that we could fix this… There are so many names for what just happened So many labels that you can apply to this mess these last few pages of the chapter.. I starting a new one tomorrow.. Breaking off. Severing myself from this **** I can see clearly now and I’m not liking what I see My childhood was a lie Every word was a lie You were a lie