Dear Diary

Dear diary today was a bad day but I'm unsure why Depression knocked me down but it didn't realise I still had more fight Battling with myself, I need to find a way to win this war inside It's at a stage where I'm comfortable with nightmares that would leave most mortified The world sees me smile, but this pain is internal I hide it from my friends, and just put it on a page in my journal I remain cool, but it's like I'm walking through a blazing inferno I learned from being stabbed in the back by so called friends, it's not the blade that hurts you I try to focus on positive things but I'm so easily sidetracked I've been walking the wrong roads, no wonder I can't find the right path I'm walking alone, but I'm well protected, no one will get through these walls Avoiding my exes texts, but I'm still not strong enough to ignore her booty calls We both know the deal, so there's no harm being done I've been broken so many times that now my heart is numb I've felt enough pain to last a lifetime I'm lucky to still be in my right mind I've got so many questions with no one to provide the answers God if you're listening please look over my friend as he fights cancer He's only 23, please let him beat the horrible illness and be okay I just want my friend to be cancer free today Give him the strength to beat it, and keep my loved ones out of danger I wish I could go back to being 6 when I just wanted to be the red power ranger Back when I was too young to know of all this pain and hurt Dear Diary thank you for being there to take my words