Dear Dad

Anxiety crawls in my mind, Shame and guilt combine, To make internal distress, Caused by your mess Mixed with a little alcohol And then you get the rest. F*** you for making me bawl. These days I don’t feel like living at all, Due to fear you’ve placed in me, I’m trying to stay above the water, But you’re pouring more and drowning your daughter. Just put down the bottle please, Addiction is the disease. Stop blaming me. Your mind games, I’m done. This pattern of dust and destruction, im begging, Someone. Chance after chance, You keep returning to, A cat and mouse dance, Staring, you. This rope of lies you tangled around my throat, Paralyzes my will to fight. Freedom is the antidote. Instead I stare in the eyes of what I fear most, Your selfish, Manipulative, Scathing Ghost.