Dead In My Heart

There are many things in my head but there’s only one type of dead Dead in the heart I’ve been loving too hard with that so easily bruised part I need to make it new (I need it renewed) I need to have it whole I need it happily fulfilled I need these scars to fade away but it’s an impossibility due to my inability to forget I wish I could I hate the way I’m only happy on cloudy days I hate the way there’s so much that I just can’t figure out There’s so much that I just cannot take There are so many things that I hate but they all rate below you Yes I hate you I’m lamenting the very day that I took my heart and gave it away I want it back I want the old me returned right away I want me back I want to finally wake up and not think of this breakup and finally breathe easily at last I feel another panic attack Another moment of having no hope at all Another time I find myself so freaked out and then I fall I’m falling down I hate the way I’m only happy on cloudy days I hate the way there’s so much that I just can’t figure out There’s so much that I just cannot take There are so many things that I hate but they all rate below you Yes I hate you I hate you Yes I hate you I hate you Yes I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you Yes Yes I do I hate you How does that make you feel? Well I hope it makes you feel twice as bad as you make me feel I feel bad I am so unlovable so untouchable so forgettable so forsaken I feel bad And I hope you feel twice as bad as you make me feel because I hate you Yes I hate you Yes I do I hate you because I’m dead in my heart