Daughter To Father

it was always my biggest fear, the thought that if you care.
blind as a child but, now as a young adult i see clear.
you were and still is a mirror image of the father i wanted you to be.
the perfect father like i see on t.v.
at times i look up at the sky and ask God why my father have to lie.
do he treat his other children like he do my sisters and brothers.
a stranger to your family and other children.
how can i love them if we don't know one another.
bills pile up and the landlord threathing to kick us out, father tell me whats that all 
about.
is the same thing on in your household?
because even though mama and you are not marry ya'll still together.
tell me can i come stay with you for awhile until things get better.
i live my life paranoid at the world because at the age nine the devil came by 
surprise and harm your little girl,
force to be a woman in ways i didn't understand. 
where were you when on some Christmas we didn't receive a toy. 
that day i had my first kiss with what i thought was that special boy.
this is a confession from daughter to father in hopes he understand where my 
pain is coming from.
my heart race as i step outside but i know the fear that i have i must hide.
they say the strong only survives.
so in my heart i know i got to live my life as a strong woman then a scare child of 
my past.
sometimes these bad memories take over my mind, take full control.
father hold my hand and help me walk this lonely road.
release these demons hostage in my soul.
daughter to father i love you and i will never ask for to much only that when we fall 
be our clruth.
one day ill love to have you walk down the aial.
help me be the person i need to be.
help me be me.

Copyright © Trisa Atkinson | Year Posted 2007

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