Dark Thoughts
Dark Thoughts....
Dark thoughts
energy lost
where did I GO?
Inside my mind mental war
I'm the only one taking score
These feelings hard to ignore
Why can't I be the person I was before?
Overthinking my crime
Need my mind to unwind
A balance I need to find
I have no concept of time
They may see the real me
Find out my depressive history
Unmask who I am realize
How much I self criticize
Would they be kind & empathize
What I see with my own eyes
I am just plain very ordinary
This mask is very necessary
Happiness always temporary
Sabatoge myself W my own commentary
Nothing new that's customary
Is this the fate I was assigned?
That I will somehow always undermind
My own inner thoughts so unkind
Can everyone else see
The self doubt that lives inside
Self depreciating my minds guide
I want to be all that they think I am
I think I'm a decent Mother, Sister, & Girlfriend
How do I get these feelings to end
I prefer being real don't want to pretend
Was easier to cope when I had my best friend
For me she would relentlessly defend
Someday this mental prison has to end
Its comforting for someone like me
I release my inner feelings in ink
Otherwise even more free time to
think think think
Copyright © Diana Vee | Year Posted 2016
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