D4-What I'Ve Gotten Myself Into, and Out Of

Inside friends but more
Everyone knows I’m beyond 
A friend or tinder whore
Hitting spots you love and cuddling up
We pretend that it’s just touch
Time spent isn’t much; strange to think.
Listening to Frank Ocean
Told me not to show emotion 
We’ve been doing this for months
It’s beyond the sex 
But you do it best
Situation is a mess
Even so I’m truly vexed.

I look up to you (literally) 
I volunteer I want you
To show me what to do 
Won’t work for free 
Did that as a teen 
But where have you been
My whole life
Let me down twice
Third times the charm 
I’ve learned it’s beyond
The sex and the second time
We’ll do it right this time
You brought me back 
To rub your back 
And gave me back that feeling
I would spend 
The rest of my days exploring you.

I see you in everything. 
Real life, in my dreams.
Am I exploring life for you?
Are you my muse? 
Is that a problem?
I’m going to make more cookies.
You don’t know that.
Didn’t ask.
Want to share?
I know you like them.
Those are facts.
No emotion there.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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November 11, 2020 at 2:16 AM
Interesting introspection, seems like a bit of a dilemma... I've been in a similar situation...
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